ToRights

by DeathBoy

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These walls are paper thin And I'm feeling underneath it all I'm falling out and in This larger life now feels so small There is no easy way This hurt it hurts me every time I don't know what to say I'm twisted up and can't unwind I shout your name from here You shut me down and close the door I should be fine in here I've died a thousand times or more I've loved in silent smiles These words are heavy on my back I've walked for miles and miles It suffocates so just relax You run away from it A screaming heart that makes no sound Can't make the pieces fit I cry when there's no one else around If I could find some light My friends might understand my soul If I could make it right I'd put back everything I stole And is this all I need? The simple life I led before But now I'm on my knees With all the ghosts I can't ignore They sit and sing with me A battered anthem from my youth Bleeding a symphony A stubborn hope I can't refuse The end begins again I'm burning up to blind my eyes The end begins again I live the night till something dies The end begins again I'm crawling round got caught inside The end begins again I found the dream and lost my mind
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intro --- my moon goes down your sun comes up is your rhythm natural or down to luck? --- hear their feet in the corridoor hold my head down life's become intolerable now you're not around when they came looking I struggled for a lie can't have been too convincing they took me for a ride so I said you died so I said you died they said you lived here I said you'd gone they called me a liar I said they were wrong showed me a photo you and me, all smiles said it proved I knew you I said it's been a while --- I feel more peaceful now if a little resigned images all fade away and leave me blind and it gives me the shivers recordings of your voice asking for forgiveness as if I had a choice so I said you died so I said you died asking too many questions in this interrogation couriers carry clipboards and demand information I got lost in a paragraph or was is something I signed? left a promise on voicemail lost my heart and my mind --- now they look at me funny since you went away on the edge of the pavement at the end of the day just a name on my credit cards just bruise in my pride never knew what to say to them so I said you died --- we were in this together must have done something wrong so you wrote me a letter so I sang you a song now I'm counting the seconds down till they knock down the door turning up with the teargas I'm not there anymore
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Beautiful 03:23
she doesn't talk like one of those that's what makes me sit so close shall I compare you to a rose? your beautiful and comatose when you're flat on your back girl, you give me heart attacks and she doesn't realise my girl's got pretty eyes and when your hair's a mess sweat dripping down your neck let's get you out 'that dress I've got something to confess --- you make me fall apart gave you the keys to my heart make me think in clichés but that don't matter anyway getting drunk on cheap wine when you wind around my spine wanna take you on the northern line we're shedding clothes and stealing time underneath the weeping willows lying, cuddled up to pillows think about her when she isn't there tie another bullet in her hair we're always courting with disaster but that's ok if i can have her there ain't no happy ever-after just stolen moments filled with laughter
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so here we go again got more experience no more excuses now and no more bitterness we said we'd be just friends the cycle never ends we terminated this with due dilligence I should feel better now but still I don't somehow the knife is twisting still the cuts that make me ill my head's a fucking mess but this damn this loneliness it makes me feel just like when the world still held some interest I am a nexus I live to fall I am gaping hole of violence that lives inside us all I am the DJ and I am the drink I am the thing that pushes you over the brink remember when you said we were so innocent remember when you hurt and weren't so violent and we shared everything and life was beautiful and I was happy then until you fucked it all I know I asked this I know I don't deserve a moment's happiness to love without reserve and I have learnt the lesson and I am better now I will behave, I will abstain so you can breathe somehow as if I will, yeah fuck go try for better luck I am the demon will not stop until we all fall down You kept them all away but now they're here again a million knives of insecurity are my best friends
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all he has to be is the least bit better than me these days, I get the feeling I'm making his job easy all he has to do is be there and rational when I'm no good for you I know I know if just one person could describe his positives without the inevitable stream of perjoratives he'd stand up next to me like a god in neon lights you know you've found the right boy no struggle, no fights if he's five foot nine or more he's what you're looking for - and all I've hated shining bright blue eyes mine are breakbeat brown and dilated I bet he holds his temper just like I hold my drink I bet he's holding you right now I tried but I still sink I'm made of different metal and sometimes I take too long to settle before I'm happy in myself I wouldn't blame you I'd never ask you why Not my job to save you but you chose the wrong fucking guy
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Bugs 03:18
And the blue night air It breaks on, sleepy town And I need you here just to pull me down Hear the gossips breed And ambition rot Hear the bugs still feed on what time forgot Still I need you too Come and find my heart Come and hold me through all these cold remarks No more lonely nights Please, I beg the sky I'm so scared of heights and I feel so high ---------------------------------------- This isn't London man Just suburban cloaks Where the lovers grab at each others throats If I make my stand Will the weeds still grow? Where the teardrops land and no one knows It's one step forward But then two steps back My words so awkward when my hearts attacked It's so quiet out here On these empty streets But I can't disappear where no one breathes ---------------------------------------- I can feel you call All my silent friends With our names on walls and our raw pretence I'm still holding out I'm still fighting hard But it's shouting loud from embittered scars ---------------------------------------- This isn't London man Just suburban cloaks Where the lovers grab at each others throats If I make my stand Will the weeds still grow? Where the teardrops land and no one knows
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Machinegun 04:06
I've got a right end And a wrong one It's been a long time since we got some kinda spite-fuelled I got along once I'm not a person I would recognise I am erasing the all-pervading I'm Masqerading as a person I'm a projectile of nothing worthwhile I don't function unless I hurt some ---------------- I am a machine gun I am the obscene one got nothing to give no reason to live just keep shooting till it all falls down I am a machine gun I'll never believe no-one I'm just another fucking reason why the only way to live is to kill someone ---------------- Rest your finger on the safety catch Become something you're not Drop the bullet into the glass Throw back the shot ---------------- I am a weapon I am a tool I had a reason I am a fool I'm under pressure From everyone I'm an excuse for what I've become I am the fallout I am the bomb I try crawlout from the explosion Always thought that I was the one guess you showed me I'm all done ---------------- Standing over this pit I know I'm going to dive can't get over this shit can not stay alive I put nothing inside you except lead and there's no place to hide because it's all dead
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At My Best 03:46
i'm getting paranoid again, I'm reconfiguring slowly these nights, when I try to decompress I get lonely it's not like you give a fuck if I'm ok it's not like you ever knew me anyway and I don't know why I even care every time I see you sitting there can't seem to fucking think of any words a head full of verbs none of which appropriate you only seem to see me when I'm at my worst a low-grade parasite bivalve of approbium --- you never see me at my best I'm always drunk, trying to impress Apologise for the time we last met playing catch-up in an infinite regress I try to show you that I'm not what you think knocking back my problems with another fucking drink and every chance I ever fucking had of proving otherwise I self-sabotage, I auto-demonize --- it's like a fairytale sprinkle me with alcohol I try to crush the paranoids with paracetamol I live between the words we dress up like we know them all I am another demographic of the demerol -- if I was you and you were me well, I wouldn't blame you for the things you fucking see -- one, two, I'm not like you three, four, and I need some more five, six, analyse these tricks seven, eight, never procreate one, two, gonna push right through three, four, on the cold, hard floor five, six, with a tough remix seven, eight, learn to hide your fucking hate
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spitting back your memory erased spill your blackened imagery disgrace bitter drinks half bitten smiles saving face and in denial heating up cold steel embrace giving up to the metal taste ----- let me out i'm not in to you hit the breaks I need some altitude see that crowd? well, they're not here for you one more time and fuck your attitude ----- this is the end of an error this is not what you all turned out to see so sick there's no getting better all you got and its all made out of me this is the end of an error we are not what we pretend to be so quick then we're gone forever one last shot then it's all burnt out of me ----- fucking up in misery and wires shout your twisted majesty of fire scheming hands, half written lies coming down but on the rise wasted life, so shambolic sober thoughts but alcoholic ----- let me out I'm not into you hit the breaks I need some altitude see that crowd? well, they're not here for you one more time and fuck your attitude

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released November 6, 2008

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DeathBoy create a variety of electronic music. While best-known for their trademark dark and dirty industrial albums, they also release a variety of techno and ambient tracks. The music is characterised by breakbeats and basslines. Dark, electronic, vodka-fuelled misanthropy and twisted lyrics. DeathBoy cannot be destroyed by conventional weaponry. ... more

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